My old ice cream story

July 3, 2003

After a long time, I made a little trip to Baskin Robbins.

Wow~! New flavors~!!!!!!

Among those new and unfamiliar names, there was one that interests me the most.
Did someone notice my craving for Chocolate? I saw red little things inside a chocolate ice cream which is dark as night. HEARTBREAK HEALER. This chocolate ice cream with chocolate chunks and red hearts, was inspired by Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman couple. (What do they want to say? A bitter sweet relationship??? Ha...)

OK. Here goes my first bite.

OMG~~~!!!!! Bitter, bitter and bitter......... Have you ever tried 99% cacao chocolate before? If you haven't imagine you are licking your antibiotic pill. Yap...it was extreme.

It was so dark, it almost numbed my tongue.
Come on~~~!!!! Heartbreak Healer~ Weren't you supposed to heal my heart? Hello~????

OK. Just try again.

Hmmm......What is this in my mouth? Something minty and sweet is consoling my rather unpleasant memory. A-ha~! The red hearts!!!!
It was little chocolates taste as sweet as heaven and as soft as a baby's smile.
Aren't you a real heartbreak healer now~??!!!

HEARTBREAK HEALER - Treating a wounded heart.
Whether it is from a romantic relationship, a friendship, money or fame, the pain we feel all hurts deep. A broken heart searches for something in an effort to erase the scar with their never-will-be-heard voice loud in the air crying out 'Save Me.'

The first bitter bite of this ice cream tells those who are looking for a breakthrough that there is nothing like a miraculous, unconditioned and magical cure for their pain.
So, don't try to hide or run away. You have to face it and get through with it.
Instead of a warm comfort we all look for, it pokes us in the cut in the heart once again and makes us remember and realize how much it hurts.
No matter how much we try to stay safe, our heart can be broken any time and even the old wound can be open and bleed again against our will.

The second bite is a little happy pill for all the people who got so frightened and scared of the bitterness and became to exaggerate all their pain. It says to us, 'Come on, it's not all bad. Take a deep breath and relax...'

These sweet red hearts give a little push on our shoulder toward the positivity when we are caught in the middle of fear, confusion, sadness, anger, sorrow, conflicts and little of hope.

However, it all depends on us how far we will move forward with this as a momentum.


Haha......such a long story over an ice cream. Silly...

Hmmm...Who cares? right? ;-))

CHOCOLAT - about letting ourselves live a life in full.

In this little French village, everything looks just calm and perfect. It's so calm, it even feels like everything in the world lost its color and became a still picture on the wall.

They prohibit every little thing that can bring personal pleasure, so they can live their peaceful yet well controlled life. However, it seemed like they were punishing themselves by not letting themselves have sense of joy or indulgence.

We punish ourselves many times in our life with or without intention. Why do we do that? For what? Do we punish ourselves for all the mistakes and failures that we caused in the life? Sometimes even become so afraid of future mistakes and all the blames that follow, we just keep ourselves in a small box, blocking the world from getting into us. Actually, it is not blocking the world. We block ourselves in the box and never let us out, so we do not make the same old mistakes again and again.

The problem is, where the life goes? What do we feel inside?

How long should we punish ourselves to feel satisfied and relieved? In this way, we can never feel forgiven or set free. Only when we stand up on our feet and live again, we gain the true control over our life and feel free. The cold yet fresh air will fill up our lung and let us breathe again.

A girl, once over-weight and very sad, is so afraid of getting weight again and never lets herself truly appreciate the deliciousness of foods. The joy of sharing good meals with friends. The rich aroma comes from the kitchen of her favorite restaurant. All the things she gave up for her little perfect body are now killing her inside. Making her empty and dry, just like the 5-calorie whole grain cracker she got from the cheap diet program.

One day, she tastes one bite of her favorite dark-mint chocolate and she cries. The sweetness on the tip of her tongue makes her speechless. The caffeine makes her heart pump so hard, she feels like it's going to explode. She feels the joy of life, but soon the anxiety kicks back and makes her more nervous than ever. This one small bite leads to so many WHAT IFs.

What is I loose control again...what if I get fat again...what if I became another failure and let everyone down...what if...what if...

What if no one loves me anymore......

Now she can either spit out that small piece of joy and go back to her small cage waiting for someone to save her (which will never happen), or she can just easily swallow the chocolate, enjoy the moment and go outside and run until her heart gets warm again. The moment she opens the door and step outside the house, her life begins again and everything goes back to normal.

Not perfect but normal. All the stupid mistakes, failures, blames and forgiveness. The life full of passion, anxiousness and happy pains.